Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Spookery Trail

In my earlier blog, Metamophosis, I said that I would tell you more about the event that changed my family's life. Hopefully this story will serve as a reminder of how fragile this life really is and how it is able to change directions in a split second. We are not in control and God provides grace and love in the toughest events that life can bring.

It was halloween night in the year of 1994. I was 10 years of age and a Boy Scout at the time. That halloween our troop decided to host a "spookery trail" to raise some money and we were on our way to have fun being scared and running away from wild men with chainsaws. It was me, my cousin Dedra, my Mom, Dad, thier friend...A Scout leader... and the Scout leader's son that all piled in our extended cab Chevy pickup and made our way to the spook trail in the woods. When we arrived I was excited and didn't know what to expect. As we made our way along the trail, I can remember thinking that this was a pretty good one and had some really good scenes. I was shaken up a couple of times but tried to act like it wasn't that scarey until I got chased out of the trail by a man with a chainsaw! I knew in the back of my mind that there was no way that he would acually have a real chain on but nonetheless...I ran like it was real!

As we talked amongst ourselves about the trail, we made our way back to the truck to make the journey back home. When we came to the truck we all piled in...my Dad was driving, my Mom was in the front middle seat and The Scout leader was in the front passenger seat. I was behind my Dad, my cousin was in the back middle and the Scout leader's son was behind him. We began our ride back home, conversing and laughing about the trial like normal people do. My Dad mentioned that we were actually having a discussion about angels at the time right before the wreck. As we made our way down Hwy 23, we came to the point that exits into Hwy 71 north. As we were approaching our exit, a Tyson chicken truck was also exiting ONTO Hwy 23 coming from 71 south. When he made the turn onto Hwy 23 much of the weight shifted and he lost his load on top of our truck. As we were going around the curve, the Tyson chicken truck carrying a full load of chickens in crates was coming toward us on the curve as well. Like I said...everything was normal...we were just driving along. All of a sudden the boy in the back passenger seat yelled out....LOG! He thought that the 30 plus chicken crates that were now falling off of the Tyson chicken truck were acually logs falling off of a logging truck. I personally had no idea what had happened to us until the next morning. The driver of the truck had failed to secure his load earlier that day, or the chains just broke, and when he made the exit he lost his load on top of our truck. We were going about 55 to 6o mph around the curve when the load was lost so you can imagine how great of an impact it made on our vehicle. The worst thing is that the truck driver did not even notice that anything had even happened, that he had lost a good portion of his load... and just kept on going unitl a patrol officer chased him down to inform him of what happened!

After the kid screamed out...LOG!...the truck was quiet for another second becuase no one knew what was actually happening. Like I said, I had no idea what was about to happen because I was in the seat behind my father and could not see anything. Next thing I can remember is my father raising up his hands off of the stearing wheel as a natural reaction to block the chicken crates that were about to come crashing through the front windshield at speeds of 55mph. I remember the impact, just imagine the sound of a bomb mixed with shattering glass...that was the initial hit. Then, because there where about 20 to 30 crates that acually fell on top of our truck, the next sound was like a bunch of huge rocks just pouring down. This all happened within a few seconds time. When the hit occured,  I was shocked and did not know how to react at first...I could not believe this was happening...I thought "Am I in a dream?" As glass started to fly, my natural reaction was to duck behind my father's seat. My cousin Dedra also used the driver's seat as shelter from the flying glass so I took her under under my arms to protect her. The crash itself lasted for a while, so it seemed...a good 15 to 20 seconds at least. When the crates hit us my Dad slamed on the breaks and the skid marks can be seen on the road, but upon impact my Dad's neck was broken and his foot let off the break. We continued down the road for a while and finally endend up going off into the ditch on the right, running through a thicket of trees, finally hitting one big enough to make us come to a complete stop. I can remember this time very well. I still thought I was in a dream..."could this be happening?" I acually pinched and slapped myself to wake up as I was looking around. Everything was quiet and the dome light was flickering on and off...like some kind of horror movie. The headlights were still on, shining through the trees ahead. Steam was vilently rising from the broken engine and I could still hear the crackling of the broken windsheild. Sticks and glass were everywhere inside the vehicle as well as about 5 or so chicken crates stuck in the front windshield. Some of the chickens were still half alive and moving around in the crates. The dome light flickered a few more times and went off for good leaving us in total darkness with the moonlight. My mother and father broke the silence with gurgling...like they were trying to breath. I wanted to cry and started to, but I couldn't becuase I was in shock. I was asking my cousin "what happened? what happend?" and she was asking me the same. While my cousin and the other kid in the back were moving around, I remember looking at my mom. The middle seat had broken backwards from the impact and she was now almost laying in my lap. The light had turned back on now for a moment and I rubbed her forhead that was glittered with broken glass, she was out cold. Upon impact one of the crates hit her in the head and slamed her back, causing her to suffer a severe brain unjury and slip into a comma for a couple of weeks. The other guy in the passenger seat finally came to consciousness and tryed to open his door. The trees made it difficult but he managed to open it enough to get out of the truck and make it up to the road to wave for some help. It was about a minute or so until another car passed by. As he was looking for help, we (the kids) began to try to get out of the truck ourselves. The kid in the back found a large stick and began to try and bust the back winshield out...it wasn't working. So we just waited, I had so many emotions going on in my head. I was scared, hurt because of what had happened to my parents, and confused. A person finally did drive by and stopped. It was the lady from my daycare and a car full of her children. She called for help and someone came to the truck to help the children out...my mother and father were still uncouncious. Someone ripped the small side window off of the truck and we all crawed through one by one. As we were about to go out my father was trying to talk, but sounded like he was just groaning. When I got out of the truck I was just silent and didn't say much at all while we waited for the ambulance. I didn't want to talk to anyone, there was nothing to say. Everyone was trying to comfort me but it just wasn't working much. The ambulance told my father that he got out of the truck and tried to get my mother out but failed. He then laid on the ground and passed out agian. The next thing he says he remembers is going into the ambulance, then later being woke up by the peremedics stapling major lacerations in his head back together. They told my father that my mother probably would not make it through the night. She was mangled and had a severe brain injury. Later that night they had to transport them both to a hospital in Fort Smith.

That night I could not sleep at all. I didn't know if my parents would live. I ended up staying with my cousin becuase there was no where else to stay. The next morning my cousin's parent's had to go to work so I likewise had to go to school. I can remember walking through the school hallway that morning when I arrived. Everyone was laughing and having a good time before school started like normal...like nothing had happened, but my life had just changed in one night. I sat down beside my best friend and he began to try and joke around with me and talk with me like normal. I told him what happened and he was shocked, not knowing really what to say.

The next two weeks I stayed with my uncle while my parents were in the hospital. My dad had a broken neck at the second vertibra and my mom suffered a severe brain injury. My mother went through many months of rehab and relearned how to do many basic functions of life such as walking, writing, etc. She retained alot of memory though and the doctors were suprised. They said that she would never recover as well as she has. During this time God really comforted our family and gave us the grace to praise and worship him in this tragic time. We did question God and wonder why he would allow such a thing to happen to us, but in the end, God has been very loving and gracious to us to this day. My parents lives could have easily ended on that halloween night of 1994. They now are able to tell the testimony of how God healed them both and kept them alive. It is amazing how a person is able to praise and worship God even in the darkest times of life...when things don't make sense...only by his power and grace are we able to do this. He is the one that gave my parents the strength to continue beliving and loving him in this time. I see no other reason why a person would want to love and serve God after an event like this unless it was accompanied with Him giving us the ability and understanding to do so. During this time our family acually grew closer to God. It has been 15 years now since this freak accident. My mother and father have both recovered with minor evidence of the wreck. I write these thing so that I will have a personal account of what happened and so that you can see a real -live example of how God provides strength and healing in the face of death and tragedy.











Sunday, December 20, 2009

New Book Coming Soon!


From Mourning to Glory: The Death of a Child From Addiction / By Claire Brown
Avalible on ebook: www.clairebrownonline.com
Paperback coming soon!

What is Mission? The Big Picture

Mission is not relocation.

Sadly, the term mission is a widely abused phrase that carries alot of baggage. My hope here is to give a clear understanding of what we call "missions," which could be better understood first as "the mission of God."

First of all we must consider the Scriptures. Christopher Wright explains in his book, The Mission of God, that...

"The Bible renders to us the story of God's mission through God's people in thier engaugement with God's world for the sake of the whole of God's creation. The Bible is the drama of this God of purpose engauged in the mission of achieving that purpose with its center, foucas, climax, and completion in Jesus Christ. Mission is not just one of a list of things that the Bible happens to talk about, Only a bit more urgently than some. Mission is, in that much-abused phrase, what it's all about." Our mission flows from and participates in the mission of God.

John Piper expalins in his book, Let the Nations be Glad, the supreamacy of God in missions...

"Missions is not the ultimate goal of the church. Worship is. Missions exists because worship doesn't. Worship is ultimate, not missions, because God is ultimate, not man. When this age is over, and the countless millions of the redeemed fall on their faces before the throne of God, missions will be no more. It is a temporary necessity. But worship abides forever. Worship, therefore, is the fuel and goal in missions. It's the goal of missions because in missions we simply aim to bring the nations into the white-hot enjoyment of God's glory. The goal of missions is the gladness of the peoples in the greatness of God."  But worship is also the fuel of missions. Passion for God in worship precedes the offer of God in preaching. You can't commend what you don't cherish. Missionaries will never call out, "Let the nations be glad!", who cannot say from the heart, "I rejoice in the Lord, I will be glad and exult in thee, I will sing praises to thy name, O Most High" (Psalm 104:34; 9:2). Missions begins and ends in worship. If the pursuit of God's glory is not ordered above the pursuit of man's good in the affections of the heart and the priorities of the church, man will not be well served and God will not be duly honored. I am not pleading for a diminishing of missions but for a magnifying of God. When the flame of worship burns with the heat of God's true worth, the light of missions will shine to the most remote peoples on earth. And I long for that day to come! Where passion for God is weak, zeal for missions will be weak. Churches that are not centered on the exaltation of the majesty and beauty of God will scarcely kindle a fervent desire to "declare his glory among the nations" (Psalm 96:3). Even outsiders feel the disparity between the boldness of our claim upon the nations and the blandness of our engagement with God."

If then mission is our participation in God's mission as revealed throughout the Bible, our mission is not to simply relocate to another country (although it may include this and needs to, as I will later explain) but to accept God's invitation to join him in reaching those who do not know him and do not worship him.

What is unreached people?

An unreached or least-reached people is a people group among which there is no indigenous community of believing Christians with adequate numbers and resources to evangelize this people group. In a situation like this, unless someone from the outside comes in, "unreached people" may never hear the gospel. Besides what has been explained above as the reason for mission, this is another reason for foreign mission and a reason to relocate outside of one's own culture for the sake of introducing them to Christ.

More information on unreached people can be found at:
http://www.joshuaproject.net/definitions.php?term=25

Friday, December 11, 2009

December 09 Book Reviews

1. Spectacular Sins, Piper:

This book is suprisingly thin for Piper, it may be his shortest. At only 110 pages I was thinking that it would be a easy read that I could just blow through in about 2 days or so, but as I began to read I found otherwise. Eventhough it is a short read, Piper fills it full of meat and it took me a while to chew each bite. Piper explains some of the hardest verses in the Bible that deal with God and his character. If you are looking to hold on to the God of your imagination and not willing to confront how he has revealed himself through his word, then this is not the book for you. Piper explains, "The aim of this book is not to meet felt needs, but to awaken needs that will son be felt, and then to save your faith and strengthen your courage when evil prevails," and "My aim is to show that sin and evil, no matter how spectacular, never nullify the decisive, Christ-exaliting pruposes of God. No, my aim is more than that. These spectacular sins (such as the fall of Adam, The Pride of Babel, The Sale of Joseph, Judas, and finally the Crucifixtion of Christ) do not just fail to nullify God's prupose to glorify Christ, they succeed, by God's unfathomable providence, in making his gracious purpose come to pass. This truth is the steel God offers to put in the spine of his people as they face the worst calamities." Some of the things that Piper explains in this book had me wondering for a minute, "could this be true? does God really say this?" but as I read further, Piper would always show the reader the plain text from the Bible. This book helped me along the proccess of accepting who God really is instead of who I want him to be. Piper shows how even Satan and evil are not out of God's control. One of the verses that Piper uses that I think defines this book is from the mouth of Joseph, "You meant evil against me, but God meant it for good." If you are looking to put some "steel in your spine" then I would recommend this book.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

December 09 Reading List

Religon Saves, Mark Driscoll
The Mortification of Sin, John Owen
Spectacular Sins, John Piper
How People Change, Timothy Lane & Paul Tripp
A Hunger For God, John Piper
Addictions: A Banquet in the Grave, Edward Welch
Starting A House Church, Larry Kreider & Floyd McClung

Reviews coming soon!

Top 10 fastest growing(not highest paid) jobs with a Master's Degree or higher

An interesting change:

1. Veterinarian
2. Mental Health Counselor
3. Mental Health and Substance Abuse Social Worker
4. Marriage and Family Therapist
5. Physical Therapist
6. Physician Assistant
7. Occupational Therapist
8. Environmental Scientist and Specialist
9. Hydrologist
10. Curator

More info at: http://careerplanning.about.com/od/exploringoccupations/tp/hi_growth_mast.htm

Growing Demand

Mental health and substance abuse social workers will grow by 30 percent (average growth is 14 percent), which is much faster than the average, over the 2006-16 decade. In particular, social workers specializing in substance abuse will experience strong demand. Substance abusers are increasingly being placed into treatment programs instead of being sentenced to prison. Also, growing numbers of the substance abusers sentenced to prison or probation are, increasingly being required by correctional systems to have substance abuse treatment added as a condition to their sentence or probation. As this trend grows, demand will strengthen for treatment programs and social workers to assist abusers on the road to recovery.

From: http://www.bls.gov/oco/ocos060.htm#outlook

Saturday, December 5, 2009

The truth about our condition. The state from which we must be saved.

Do you ever wonder why you do certain things? Are you ever surprised by what evil comes out of your heart at times? I am. There are days when I can truly see the fruit of God's grace in my life and the changes that he has and is making within my heart. But, there are still other days when I am utterly aware of my broken and ugly condition. It is also in these times that I am most thankful for God's grace. I believe that it is paramount to understand who we are at the core without God's grace. Only by understanding and accepting the truth about our condition can we fully appreciate the offer that God gives us through Christ and the power that he alone can give to change. Only then are we able to see that we are utterly dependent upon him to save.


The Bible tells me the unvarnished truth...I am totally depraved.


Sin has corrupted my mind, so that I do not think God's thoughts (Eph. 4:18)
Sin has corrupted my will, so that I do not desire God's desires (Rom. 6:16-17)
It has corrupted my emotions, so that I do not feel what God feels (Titus 3:3)
It has corrupted my body, so that I do not experience the health that God originally intended for me (Rom. 8:10)
It has corrupted my relationships with God and people, so that I am separated by sin (Col. 1:21)
Sin has corrupted my behavior, which includes pagan worship of created things rather than right worship of my creator, God (Rom. 1:18-31)


As a result of the above, I realize that the consequences of my sin are, not surprisingly, put forth in the starkest of terms. As a sinner, by nature....


I am evil continually (Gen 6:5) Impure (Prov. 20:9) Full of evil and madness (Eccl. 9:3) Wicked and estranged (Ps. 58:3) Going my own way (Isa. 53:6) Rebellious (Isa. 65:2) Among those who have loved the darkness (John 3:19) A slave to sin (John 8:34, Rom. 6:20) A child of the devil (John 8:43-44) Unrighteous, not understanding; not seeking God; a stiff-necked resister of the Holy Spirit (Acts 7:51) Turned aside, worthless, not doing good, having a hard and impenitent heart (Rom. 2:4-6) Without fear of God (Rom. 3:10-18) Hostile to God (Rom. 8:7) Spiritually foolish (1Cor. 2:14) Spiritually dead and among the children of wrath (Eph. 2:1-3) Darkened; alienated; maked by ingorance and hardness of heart; callous and given up to perversion, greed and impurity of every sort (Eph. 4:17-19) Among the enemies of the cross of Christ (Phil. 3:18) Dead (Col. 2:13) Defiled and unbelieveng (Titus 1:15) Under the power of the evil one (1 John 5:19) Foolish, disobedient, led astray and among the slaved to various passion and pleasures, passing our days in malice and envy, hated by other and hating one another (Titus 3:3)


The consequences of our own sinfulness are overwhelming.... and rightly so.... pointing us to Christ as our Savior and helping us to realize our need for his grace to save us from this condition. This is the brutal truth of who we are below the surface without Christ. Without his intervention we are naturally inclined to run away from God and disobey him.



In Mark Dricoll's book, Religion Saves, he says the following......


Today, the fact of my own sinfulness is one Christian truth that I do not struggle to believe. Only Christianity can explain both the sin that is in me and the sin that surrounds me, despite all the time, money, and energy the word exerts to remedy it, from soldiers fighting wars to counselors prescribing medications.


Therefore, my sin is not the hardest aspect of Christian truth to believe. What I sometimes find hard to believe is that God responds to me with pure grace. I receive not only undeserving grace, but also ill-deserving grace because I am a sinful rebel at war with God. This means that God would be gracious in doing good for strangers, but God goes even further and is gracious to even his enemies.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

What Needs to Change?

~See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ. (Col. 2:8)

*My Circumstances?
The most popular simplistic approach to change focuses on external circumstances. "I need more money." "If I could change my looks, my life would be better." Finger-pointing is the strategy, and the goal is to change my life by changing the circumstances around me.

This approach to change is not only deceptive, but hollow as well. It misses my need for Christ's redeeming grace, and it places the blame for my sin at God's doorstep! We blame God for placing the problem person or circumstance in our life. If only this or that were different. With this approach, the grace of God will not be sought or received.

*My Behavior? (Similar to the "Self-Help gospel")
Your behavior does need to change! But this approach only addresses external actions. It does not go after the reasons why you continue to do these things (which is the sinful human heart that only the power of Christ can change). Instead the person simply hopes to replace bad behavior with good. He believes he just needs some skills. He doesn't want to do the time-consuming and painful work of looking at motivation. He just wants to deal with the problem behavior with techniques that will help him navigate life more smoothly (For example: Christian self help, 5 steps to this or 7 keys for that).

Behavioral approach to change is hollow because it ignores the need for Christ and his power to change first the heart and then the behavior.

The Bible passages that emphasize the need for new behavior are all built on the foundation of God's grace at work to change our hearts through the power of the Spirit.

*My Thinking?
In this approach to change, your thinking needs to be adjusted so your behavior will reflect appropriate thought about your circumstances.

This view of change is closer to a truly biblical understanding of change, but it is not sufficient, it is not the main goal...Christ is. If you have a problem with anger, you are told to memorize certain verses so that you can recite them in moments of anger. If you struggle with fear, you should read Scripture passages that focus on trusting God when you are afraid.

This emphasis on thinking as the solution to our problems fails to introduce the Person who has come not only to change the way we think about life, but to change us as well. Jesus comes to transform our entire being, not just our mind.

*My Self-Concept? (Similar to the Self-Esteem gospel)
"Believe in yourself!" "You can do anything you put your mind to!" This approach to change looks within oneself for the power to change.

"You can't love God or others if you don't first love yourself." It all sounds so biblical! But it makes assumptions about the human heart that the Bible does not. This view is deceptive because it seems to capture how we feel inside, but it makes us look far more passive and innocent that we really are. The Bible describes us as defectors and enemies of God who want to fill ourselves with things in creation rather than the Creator (Rom. 1:21:-25). This view flatters us far more than we deserve.

"If I can just deal with the oppressive guilt and increase my self-esteem, then I will be free to live and love." This approach is hollow because it does not offer good news for the guilty and self-loathing person. Instead of connecting our guilt and shame to our own sin and rebellion against God, this view downplays our guilt and misses a great opportunity to call us to esteem Christ's work on our behalf.

The cross reminds us that though we are made in God's image, we are deeply flawed and bent toward loving ourselves above all. Deep down we know that we don't measure up. We feel small because we are small, but false teaching encourages us to reject those thoughts of smallness by affirming our own greatness. The cross of Christ shows us how glorious, merciful, and forgiving God is and how great his love is for us in Christ. This recognition of my guilt and God's glory is the only thing that can eradicate shame and self-loathing. Bottom line: I am called to esteem God, not myself.

*Jesus the therapist
If Jesus is my therapist, he is the One who comes to affirm me. Instead of trying to love ourselves, we think about how much Jesus loves us. This approach is deceptive because it latches onto a very powerful aspect of the gospel: God does shower his love upon us in Christ! Everyone who reads the Bible knows this. But this approach subtly turns Jesus into the One who meets my needs and fills my emptiness-as I define them. It turns God's love into something that only serves me. We turn Jesus into someone whose goal in life is to make us feel good about ourselves. A good feeling about ourselves is not the ultimate goal, Christ is. The holy love of God for sinners is humbling and uplifting at the same time. It calls the sinner to admit his own self-centeredness while cleansing and freeing him for the cage of false love for himself.

Jesus is not a vending machine that dispenses what we want to feel good about ourselves. He is the Holy One who comes to cleanse us, fills us, and change us. He does not do this according to our agendas. He will not serve our wayward needs. He loves us too much to merely make us happy. he comes to make us holy. There will be many occasions when he will not give us what we think we need, but rather, the will give us what he knows we need.

From: How People Change, Lane/Tripp

What is Religon?

Religion says that if we obey God He will love us. The gospel says that it is because God has loved us through Jesus that we can obey.

Religion says that the world is filled with good people and bad people. The gospel says that the world is filled with bad people who are either repentant or unrepentant.

Religion says that you should trust in what you do as a good moral person. The gospel says that you should trust in the perfectly sinless life of Jesus because He alone is the only good and truly moral person who will ever live.

The goal of religion is to get from God such things as health, wealth, insight, power, and control. The goal of the gospel is not the gifts God gives, but rather God as the gift given to us by grace.

Religion is about what I have to do. The gospel is about what I get to do.

Religion sees hardship in life as punishment from God. The gospel sees hardship in life as sanctifying affliction that reminds us of Jesus’ sufferings and is used by God in love to make us more like Jesus.

Religion is about me. The gospel is about Jesus.

Religion leads to an uncertainty about my standing before God because I never know if I have done enough to please God. The gospel leads to a certainty about my standing before God because of the finished work of Jesus on my behalf on the cross.

Religion ends in either pride (because I think I am better than other people) or despair (because I continually fall short of God’s commands). The gospel ends in humble and confident joy because of the power of Jesus at work for me, in me, through me, and sometimes in spite of me.

From: http://www.marshillchurch.org/about/the-gospel